Our entire Universe has had it's share of challenges in 2020. Covid is something no one was prepared for. In some way I feel more connected to others now. So many are facing the challenges we have been facing for the past 7 years. As I previously stated, we have a number of Experiences listed on Airbnb. These Experiences made up approximately 50% of our funding for the shelter. Airbnb canceled all of them which left us in a state of panic about being able to pay bills. I also had 3 emergency stays this year, so far, in the hospital. The first was when I went in to have an outpatient procedure I get 3 times a year under anesthesia. I had made myself DNR status because my health only continued to spiral downward. In addition, I had learned I had a gene mutation of MTHFR. There are many variations of this mutation, however finding a doctor familiar with this was impossible for the past 10 years. My particular delineation inhibits my body from absorbing B vitamins. If you research vitamin B deficiency you will find that many of the symptoms are the same as many autoimmune disease symptoms. The medical staff had my DNR on record. Unfortunately, they woke me up in recovery and stated I was being admitted under Cardiology for another surgery because I was in Complete Heart Block and needed a Pacemaker/Defibrillator implanted. I had an extremely hard time trying to come to terms with this. When I returned home I became deeply depressed. I believed that what they did was wrong. I have had too many surgeries to count, and each time the instruction states, do not make any important decisions for 24 hours after anesthesia. In addition, since my husband was not with me, due to Covid protocols at the hospital, I did not have an advocate. I truly believed the only way out of the ongoing quagmire of my life was to die.
One of the Doctors the Neurologist sent me to see decided to run a Homocysteine level. A normal Homocysteine level should not be over 5.5, mine was 19. Homocysteine only stays in the bloodstream because your B vitamins are not clearing it out to make healthy new cells. The results of having high Homocysteine in your bloodstream it that is causes Heart Disease, Stroke and Blood Clots. The Doctor who ran this test then put me on a prescription form of vitamin B's and folate that my body can absorb. In one week the level went from 19 to 12. He then stated that my strokes should stop.
But the story doesn't end there. The damage to my eyes was partly caused by the medication I had been on for 2 1/2 years, Hydrochloroquine, the same medication they use for Covid. I had been telling every Doctor I had been to for 10 years, and there were many, about my MTHFR mutation. Not 1 Doctor in 10 years was able to address this. Only after I was having strokes and Complete Heart Block did a Doctor look into it and was able to treat the cause. How can I not believe that, if 10 years ago someone had the initiative to look into this, I never would have had strokes and heart disease to contend with.
When I last went to my Cardiologist, I had a reading taken from my Pacemaker/Defibrillator which showed I also had Atrial Fibrillation.
They wanted to start me on blood thinners. Unfortunately we can't afford the well over $400 cost for the prescribed medication.
I also had a bee sting on my wrist in August that resulted in being taken to the hospital by ambulance with Cellulitis. Two weeks later a bee sting on my other arm resulted in the same outcome.
This year I am writing. My first book, which is for families and small children, tells a story in prose. While waiting for the copyright, I am also writing a book about Empaths. When I first started researching Empaths, I learned so many things that made my life so much clearer. The problems we face as we grow up in society are very different from others. We experience things that others are immune to. One of the experts in this field, Christina Lopes, explains it very simply. Most people are like a glass door. The glass keeps out rain, wind, hot and cold. An Empath is like a screen door. The screen lets rain, wind, hot and cold in. Most Empaths prefer to be alone or with only 1 or 2 others at a time. The energy from a crowd can be so overwhelming that it leaves an Empath exhausted. The 5 top traits of an Empath are first that they feel the energy from others. Some of us are so sensitive that someone passing by can affect how we feel. Most Empaths have a strong connection with animals. Empaths prefer to work in nature and be close to water. Some are intuitive, precognizant.
So without knowing this, I purchased a farm with a pond, started a nonprofit dog hospice and each spring, summer and fall spend the entire day outside putting in more gardens of flowers. I also have precognition.
There are so many aspects of being an Empath that have only now made sense. I hope to be sharing my book with everyone soon.